God’s promise


Visions of rainbows,

     God’s promise in sight,

     Light of the world,

     hurled into the dark,

     No marks on my hands,

     Though I love Jesus,

     I am but a messenger.

Heaven only a heartbeat away,

     I lean on the father’s love,

     My help from above,

     When attackes come forth,

     “No weapon formed against me shall prosper”

     I offer the world my kindness in Christ.

For I know no love without Christ,

     The old man is dead, and Love alive,

     To abide by Love – my only crime,

     Hang me at the Gallows above,

     To die a Martyr for Love.

We look to creations to praise,

     Forgetting the creator our King,

     Worshipping nature is worshipping a lust,

     Must we continually discount who God is?

Enjoy the splendors of His creations,

     but praise the one who created it,

     Give thanks,

     Bank on His Love,

     And above all else, Praise his Holy Name. 

Jesus is the way……………………………


Remembering God in everything you do


Before I begin, i would be remiss if I did not pause to thank my family first.  Gina, the love of my life, the love I have for you is more that I will ever be able to put into words.  You have been there for the highs, the lows, the tough and the easy.  You have supported everything I have set out to do during my career, both in and out of the Coast Guard.  You stuck with me during times where I am sure you had every right not to be there when I got home.  You have helped me when I was down, and took care of the kids and the house when I was out to sea.  You have sacrificed your time, your passions, and more over, you have sacrificed your life for mine, and there is no greater Love than to lay your life down for your friends.  With that said, you are my best friend, my wife, my love and my passion.  If you were not here to share life with me, it would not be worth doing.  It is your turn sweetie for all of my attention and time, and I am sure you will have more of me than you proabably want for the next few months.

For my children, I love you guys, you are all so awesome talented, sweet and smart.  You bring life and light into our house on the darkest of days, and can make me smile when I am in the worst of moods.  You have seen me at my worst and at my best, you have bald cabbage patch dolls named after me, memories of skiing on top of the world with me, and art work you have created which has been tattooed on my skin, all of these things will always be a part of me.  You guys are the light in our house, the joy we have when we are together is immeasurable.  So thank you, and may God bless each one of you in His special way.

Roger, my friend, Happy Birthday to you, and thank you and LeAnn for taking the time to help with my retirement and being here to support me.  It means alot to me.  And while I look about the room and see my family, my dad, my sister, my friends and co-workers, I need to take the time to thank each of you for the support, Love and discipline you have shown towards me, molding me into the man I am today.  You have all palyed a part and I thank you for that.

While I am approaching retirement from the Coast Guard, and NOT wishing to leave any sort of legacy, I would like to make sure others are prepared to the right thing at the right time for the right reasons.

All I ask of you and others coming in behind me is to put God first in your lives, by doing this everything else will be given to you with not only a more meaningful purpose, but with an overwhelming sense of caring and love.  The men and women of the Coast Guard have been my family for the better part of 23 years, and I want you to know that God’s love will sustain you better than any satisfaction you might get from your career.  I love my Coast Guard family, but we need to be strong enough to humble ourselves in the midst of others, admit our mistakes, and learn to take advice from those who may not be as seasoned as we are at times.  A bit of homility goes a long way, especially when others are looking to you for the answers, be the example.  I am not asking you to be a doormat, but rather strong minded yet yielding when necessary.

Family comes to mind when retirement approaches.  Take time out for your family, and love them for the support they have given you.  They are the backbone of most of us, and will be there when the Coast Guard is long gone in your rearview mirror.  I remember when going through Chief’s Call To Initiation (CCTI), and the letters that our spouses wrote that we had to read in front of our peers, I could only weep in the love and support of such a great family that was backing me, and had made such unbelievable sacrifices in order for me to do the Coast Guard’s business.

As a man who spent the better part of his life without having put God first, I made the mistake of pouring my soul into things that were shallow, only to find that they were all temporary and held no eternal value. The promise of eternity is more than a whim, or words in a great book.  Eternity is forever a place reserved for those who Love God, and put Him on the pedestal that can only be His.  Too many times (me incuded) we put idols in His place, be it our careers, our comforts, our addictions, our music, our lusts or wants, or our needs.  They seem to take the place reserved for the King of Kings.  Put God back on the throine to which he belongs.  You will not regret it.

In closing I want to thank you my friends and family for the memories, support, good times, and hard times of the last 23 years.  Without you, family, and especially the Love and mercy from God, I would never have made it this far.

1 Corinthians 13 speaks of this Love:

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned,[a] but have not love, it profits me nothing.

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never fails

May God bless each of you and your families, as we part ways.  Remember to be truthful to yourself, accepting of others, and pursue God in yourtravels.  Fair winds and following seas.  Shalom, peace be with each of you.

QMC/BMC/God’s servant


God’s sunrise this morning

ImageAnd a new day has begun,

            Front row seats,

            to the rising of a new sun,

            Pastels strewn across the sky,

            Delightful ending,

            To a mentally exhausting night.

Silhouetted mountain scenes,

            Changing color schemes,

            The dawn rapes us all of discrepancies,

            And burdens us with beauty.

Hats off to the unchallenged artistry,

            Of the morning sky,

            Time standing still,

            Long enough to get my fill,

            Of peace and serenity,

            In a somewhat troubled mind,

            God I see your artistry,

            But will you ever love me?

God loves us so much, that He gives us glimpses of His beaty to remind us how much He loves us.  This reminder gives me a Hope that sustains me beyond anything I can ever put to words.  Thank you Jesus, I love you father.

Image…well in trying to let go and let God, when it came to my work situation, we started to get a little desparate.  To the point that I thought I was going to have to go back to sea full time (9 months out of the year).  I did not want that nor did I want to go abd work at something that would not pay the bills.  So this week my wife and I were looking for me, but there was not much.  I had one interview coming up for Thursday, but I did not have alot of faith in that one.  So we started filling out applications for me to go back to work in the Gulf of Mexico where I used to work towing Oil Rigs.  We were filing them out still just as I walked out the door for that interview Thursday.  I got there and was pretty impressed with the operation, and knew it would be fun, but I also knew that it wasn’t going to pay well.  The interview was over 2 hours, complete with a walk around of all the facilities and different boats I would be driving and testing for the company, but still waiting for the hammer to drop on the pay.  Long story short, they offered the job, and tald me about the pay, which is exazctly what we needed to survive.  So I accepted the offer, then found out that they will supply me with an extra 9K in a 401K.  I was so excited and went home told my wife and as we were celebrating the idea came that I needed to call a couple of other companies back that I had potential employment with.  But I wanted to make sure that I had the job, so i called the company back to make sure and I told them I was going to call the other companies to let them know I had a position with them and that I would not need further consideration.

The next day my prayer partner Rob called and left a message that he was praying and God revealed to him that I would be blessed with extra income this year.  Not 5 minutes after that, the company that hired me the day before called and said that they would like to start me at a higher position in the company and it pays close to 30k more a year.  It is more than I have ever made. OMG.  GOD is awesome, we did not even need this extra, but God decided we needed a little extra, which in hindsight will pay for the oldest childs college next year now.  I have been jumping out of my skin literally for the last 2 days.  God is awesome, the King of kings, my Love, full of Grace and compassion, and certainly right on time.  Praise you God and thank you for the blessings in my life that are bigger than anything i could ever imagine.    I love you Daddy.

Waiting on God. Let go and let God

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions


For some strange reason I have trained in a field for so long, one that I have so loved and loathed simultaneously.  For the better part of 27 years I have been out to sea in some sort or fashion; from teaching Rules of the Road to beginner Mariners, to sailing large ships and towing 900 foot container barges, to everything in between.  I love the sea, the smell of it, the unobstructed sunrises and sunsets every day, the gales, the calms, the wildlife underneath, and the wildlife on board at times.  I have seen things only seen in books, magazines and on television; humpback whales eyeing me from a few feet away and Orca whales splashing my boat with their tail passing by me in False Pass through the Alaskan Island Chain.  Sunsets at 3am on the northern slope that turn into sunrises without ever losing sight of the sun, (I have pictures).  The loathing side, which I temporarily forgot about, is the fact that I have to spend so much time away from family.  Long story short, I have this weird duality I have been faced with for years, ever since I was born-again in the spirit, about “Letting go and letting God” versus “God helps those who help themselves”. These two are baffling at times, I have heard both of these terms for years but they contradict each other immensely.  So when I retired from the Coast Guard a few weeks ago, I was done as far as I was concerned with the marine industry and was ready to go to work for God on His terms.  Herein lies the problem, I do not have the money to not work further, nor do I want to continue in the industry I have been in for the last 27 years, but this labor of love of working for God doesn’t pay enough to pay rent and put my children through college, etc.  Now to throw one more hook into the mix, I have a book on the market called Miracle at the Garage, which has recently gotten to #8 on the best sellers list with the Crossbooks bookstore as well at the same time became the reader’s pick of the month.  All of which is well and good and awesome and I give Him all the glory, but will it be enough to let go of possible jobs and put my faith in Him to make this book work?  So, do I let go of the other possible jobs and put my faith in Him and the book He asked me to write? Or, do I help myself in whatever fashion I can in the marine industry, knowing He gave me the skills to do this very thing, and knowing He will continue to bless me there?

It seems the more I hear from Him and the more I listen to His word and pray, the more I hear the words “Let go”, and less do I hear the words “God helps those who help themselves” which as I write this I am hearing and understanding from Him that the latter are man’s words, not His.  So I throw my arms up in defeat, so to speak, let Him and His Blessings take root, and pray that I and my family will be taken care of through all of this.  Tell me, am I stupid for giving up on the life I have known for 27 years?  Or is the blessing in letting go of those 27 years that were old and before my being born-again, so I ought to let them go? A conundrum to say the least, but will always know that no matter what I choose, He will not let me nor my family, starve to death.  Praise God in everything big and small.