I have stories of forgiveness in the book Miracle at the Garage, so with that big forgiveness, I felt that I had a blanket forgiveness to everyone and everything after that. I found though through asking God to search me for any sin or any anger or anything that was getting in the way of our relationship. In that search God revealed quite a few things; Selfishness, Pride, Impatience to name a few. So I asked God for forgiveness, and he laid it on my heart to meditate and pray about my impatience. Upon searching my should, God revealed to me, through my impatience where I had gotten mad at a man for the way he was driving and cutting people off. He finally cut me off, and I was furious, and then later when I had inadvertently done the same to him, this man became furious with me, so much that he threatened me. Well I will never forget how even angrier it made me, that he would have the gall to be mean after the things he had done to me and others. This was a few years ago. During prayer today, God brought that incident up to the front of my mind, and I realized that I still had anger towards him, and so I continued to search where else I had not released the anger, and found a few. But now what, I asked God, how do I release that anger, so that these people and situations no longer had power over me?!? Then graciously God let me dream about giving each of these entities a loving forgiving hug, and in projecting that hug and that love for my “neighbors”, I found forgiveness, and peace. Thank you God, for giving me Your peace, Grace, and Love.
“Surely Goodness, and Mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the House of the Lord forever.”
Happy New Year!! This statement has different meanings every year that I am alive. As I reflect on the past year, I see blessings so huge that I realize more and more that God is not only in charge but is the reason for our moods as well. When He blesses us we are happy, when we get lost in our own way and not rely on Him we struggle, when we do not see Him in our lives we get sad or mad. When we feel His presence surrounding us we shine, smile, and so full of life and light. Others will see this in us and ask us why, giving us the opportunity to tell others about His love and glory, giving way to “by the blood of the Lamband by the word of their testimony;” Rev. 12-11.
So in this new year, I sit reflecting on the blessings and in wonder and hope that this New Year can only be better than the last. Retirement from the Coast Guard, and now serving as a captain on the ocean, my first book published, though now I find myself not having time to write anymore, although my love is to sit and write about my Love of Christ. So I am blessed with a new job that pays more than I have ever made, but takes up all of my time so I realize that all I really want is to do is spend time with Him and my family. With the pain that grows in my body from years of abuse at sea, it only serves as a reminder that I am done with this kind of life and need to go to a more simple life and write and spend time with Jesus and my family. I was so full of Hope this time last year, that my book was coming out and my Coast Guard career was going to be over and I would be on to a new life with Christ, and I had a couple of months off where I went out west to go skiing and reflect on the past 20 plus years. Now, though, I do not have that awesome filling of Hope as I did last year. I have a Hope that I will be free of pain some day, and that I do not have to work like a slave anymore, and that I get more time with family and with God. Sort of a sad Hope comparatively than last years, more of a desperate Hope, a gathering of the things that pain me that I want to flee from and flee to simultaneously.
So….Happy New Year! May God bless you, and give you what you are in desperate need of, keep the faith and know that He is a good God. When you are in the storm of life look to Him and praise His Holy name, and when you are at peace, full of life light and love, look to Him and bless His Holy name.
Names will be changed to protect the innocent and deceased, but I need to tell you about God in the war zone in Iraq.
A certain transportation division was getting ready to go to Iraq, and so were having a kinda of going away party with family and friends. The whole troop was there. One of the guys (Roger, for the sake of having a name) got up and made a speech about going over. After ten minutes of small talk, he said “If we do not come back all in tact as brothers in arms, then I ask God to take those of us who are not married or have children before He takes anyone else.”
In iraq for a couple of months now, the troop was travelling in a convoy of four different three axle trucks. THey were all in a row as less chance of all of them being hit by trip wires or land mines. When all of a sudden the last truck in the convoy got hit by a trip wire bomb. The last truck!?!?!? All three of the trucks before them had driven over the trip wire already (three axles each), and nothing. The last truck was the only one carrying single guys, carrying Robert, who inadvertantly was killed by the blast. The driver was left as a quadrapalegic which the blast was so hot it carterized his wounds immediately, and others were seriously hurt. The first three trucks all had wives and children to go home to.
Dispute God now!! There are no such things as coincidences, not where God is involved. God is alive and protects us everyday. Where is your war zone? Ask God to intervene and He will. I promise you. He loves us all and is waiting for you to give up and let Him take it from here. Just ask Him into your heart, and you will find that He is faithful to save us all. I have told you before God is still in the Miracle business. God Loves you, blessings.