God’s beauty in a glimpse of time, I await patiently to have the time I need to get centered with Him again. He is so awesome and has given me so much, but here I sit and not stop to pray but to tell others that I am not praying, but writing about not praying. I am so screwed up sometimes. I have had the time to fast lately, but did I? No!! Will I? Not unless I get conviction from God, of which I am sure I won’t, because He does not interfere with Free will. I wish that He would sometimes as my ego, lust, and other sinning gets in the way. I am not completely without scruples, as I do get conviction when I do something wrong, but not if I don’t do something right, you know what I mean? Anyway, I am asking for prayer for me to have time with the Lord, prayer for my book Miracle at the Garage, to help give me more time to spend with Him, and to bless others with, and I am asking for prayer for the men’s group called the Garage. (Where the book comes from). Thank you ahead of time for that. I ask blessings from God on those who have prayed and who thought about it, and even for those of you who decided to think I was nuts and not pray, I still ask for blessings on you too. None of us are perfect, I am the least of anyone I know, as I know how bad my sinning had been in the past, and how not good I am still. I try, but fail everyday. If it were not for God, I would be dead in a ditch covered in my sin as a blanket. As I used to hide in that blanket, no matter how many times I washed it, it was still filthy, it is sin. I love the comfort of the lord so much more than that old useless blanket, but tstill i pull it out and try to hide in it. The holes in it though make me apparent to others.
In my time as a Christian, I was on a roller coaster of highs and lows while trudging through the unknown with Him, and as i would get on that high, i was like Solomon and would take over and kick God off his throne and put myself there. I have done it more than once and feel like I am doing it again as I take advantage of the blessings He has afforded me. I am not worthy to take over my life, I want to stay humbled in His blood, and grace, as to not give myself any credit, as I look back I can see He was the one who ordained this life. Yet still I do not give Him credit when worldly people talk to me about my job, i take the credit. How bad am I?
God, father, give me the strength and conviction I need to give you all of the credit for this life I have been unworthily given. I am your child, please continue to mold me as you would have me be. Do not allow me to stray too far as I have a tendency to do things on my own. Father, bless me and my family, bless those who continue to read these blogs, and bless those who are without food, water, shelter or clothing. Again, thank you for your blessings on me, and lastly, forgive me, as I am sinner, one of the worst I have ever known. Truly I love you, in Jesus mighty name,